MINA MURRAY'S JOURNAL
24 July. Whitby.--Lucy met me at the station, looking sweeter
and lovlier than ever, and we drove up to the house at the Crescent
in which they have rooms. This is a lovely place. The little river,
the Esk, runs through a deep valley, which broadens out as it comes
near the harbour. A great viaduct runs across, with high piers,
through which the view seems somehow further away than it really is.
The valley is beautifully green, and it is so steep that when you
are on the high land on either side you look right across it,
unless you are near enough to see down. The houses of the old town--
the side away from us, are all red-roofed, and seem piled up one
over the other anyhow, like the pictures we see of Nuremberg.
Right over the town is the ruin of Whitby Abbey, which was sacked
by the Danes, and which is the scene of part of "Marmion,"
where the girl was built up in the wall. It is a most noble ruin,
of immense size, and full of beautiful and romantic bits.
There is a legend that a white lady is seen in one of the windows.
Between it and the town there is another church, the parish one,
round which is a big graveyard, all full of tombstones.
This is to my mind the nicest spot in Whitby, for it lies right over
the town, and has a full view of the harbour and all up the bay
to where the headland called Kettleness stretches out into the sea.
It descends so steeply over the harbour that part of the bank has
fallen away, and some of the graves have been destroyed.
In one place part of the stonework of the graves stretches out over
the sandy pathway far below. There are walks, with seats beside them,
through the churchyard, and people go and sit there all day long looking
at the beautiful view and enjoying the breeze.
I shall come and sit here often myself and work.
Indeed, I am writing now, with my book on my knee, and listening
to the talk of three old men who are sitting beside me.
They seem to do nothing all day but sit here and talk.
The harbour lies below me, with, on the far side, one long
granite wall stretching out into the sea, with a curve outwards
at the end of it, in the middle of which is a lighthouse.
A heavy seawall runs along outside of it. On the near side, the seawall
makes an elbow crooked inversely, and its end too has a lighthouse.
Between the two piers there is a narrow opening into the harbour,
which then suddenly widens.
It is nice at high water, but when the tide is out it shoals
away to nothing,and there is merely the stream of the Esk,
running between banks of sand, with rocks here and there.
Outside the harbour on this side there rises for about half a mile
a great reef, the sharp of which runs straight out from behind
the south lighthouse. At the end of it is a buoy with a bell,
which swings in bad weather, and sends in a mournful sound
on the wind.
They have a legend here that when a ship is lost bells are heard out at sea.
I must ask the old man about this. He is coming this way. . .
He is a funny old man. He must be awfully old, for his
face is gnarled and twisted like the bark of a tree.
He tells me that he is nearly a hundred, and that he was a sailor
in the Greenland fishing fleet when Waterloo was fought.
He is, I am afraid, a very sceptical person, for when I asked
him about the bells at sea and the White Lady at the abbey
he said very brusquely,
"I wouldn't fash masel' about them, miss. Them things be all
wore out. Mind, I don't say that they never was, but I do say
that they wasn't in my time. They be all very well for comers
and trippers, an' the like, but not for a nice young lady like you.
Them feet-folks from York and Leeds that be always eatin'cured herrin's
and drinkin' tea an' lookin' out to buy cheap jet would creed aught.
I wonder masel' who'd be bothered tellin' lies to them,
even the newspapers, which is full of fool-talk."
I thought he would be a good person to learn interesting
things from, so I asked him if he would mind telling
me something about the whale fishing in the old days.
He was just settling himself to begin when the clock struck six,
whereupon he laboured to get up, and said,
"I must gang ageeanwards home now, miss. My grand-daughter doesn't
like to be kept waitin' when the tea is ready, for it takes me time
to crammle aboon the grees, for there be a many of `em, and miss,
I lack belly-timber sairly by the clock."
He hobbled away, and I could see him hurrying, as well as he could,
down the steps. The steps are a great feature on the place.
They lead from the town to the church, there are hundreds of them,
I do not know how many, and they wind up in a delicate curve.
The slope is so gentle that a horse could easily walk up and down them.
I think they must originally have had something to do with the abbey.
I shall go home too. Lucy went out, visiting with her mother,
and as they were only duty calls, I did not go.
1 August.--I came up here an hour ago with Lucy, and we had a most interesting
talk with my old friend and the two others who always come and join him.
He is evidently the Sir Oracle of them,and I should think must have been
in his time a most dictatorial person.
He will not admit anything, and down faces everybody.
If he can't out-argue them he bullies them,and then takes
their silence for agreement with his views.
Lucy was looking sweetly pretty in her white lawn frock.
She has got a beautiful colour since she has been here.
I noticed that the old men did not lose any time in coming
and sitting near her when we sat down. She is so sweet with
old people, I think they all fell in love with her on the spot.
Even my old man succumbed and did not contradict her,
but gave me double share instead. I got him on the subject
of the legends , and he went off at once into a sort of sermon.
I must try to remember it and put it down.
"It be all fool-talk, lock, stock, and barrel, that's what it
be and nowt else. These bans an' wafts an' boh-ghosts an'
bar-guests an' bogles an' all anent them is only fit to set bairns an'
dizzy women a'belderin'. They be nowt but air-blebs. They, an'
all grims an' signs an' warnin's, be all invented by parsons an'
illsome berk-bodies an' railway touters to skeer an' scunner hafflin's, an'
to get folks to do somethin' that they don't other incline to.
It makes me ireful to think o' them. Why, it's them that, not content
with printin' lies on paper an' preachin' them ou t of pulpits,
does want to be cuttin' them on the tombstones. Look here all around
you in what airt ye will. All them steans, holdin' up their heads
as well as they can out of their pride, is acant, simply tumblin'
down with the weight o' the lies wrote on them, `Here lies the body'
or `Sacred to the memory' wrote on all of them, an' yet in nigh
half of them there bean't no bodies at all, an' the memories
of them bean't cared a pinch of snuff about, much less sacred.
Lies all of them, nothin' but lies of one kind or another!
My gog, but it'll be a quare scowderment at the Day of Judgment
when they come tumblin' up in their death-sarks, all jouped
together an' trying' to drag their tombsteans with them to prove
how good they was, some of them trimmlin' an' dithering, with their
hands that dozzened an' slippery from lyin' in the sea that they
can't even keep their gurp o' them."
I could see from the old fellow's self-satisfied air and the way in which
he looked round for the approval of his cronies that he was "showing off,"
so I put in a word to keep him going.
"Oh, Mr. Swales, you can't be serious. Surely these tombstones
are not all wrong?"
"Yabblins! There may be a poorish few not wrong, savin' where they
make out the people too good, for there be folk that do think
a balm-bowl be like the sea, if only it be their own.
The whole thing be only lies. Now look you here.
You come here a stranger, an' you see this kirkgarth."
I nodded, for I thought it better to assent, though I did not quite understand
his dialect. I knew it had something to do with the church.
He went on, "And you consate that all these steans be aboon
folk that be haped here, snod an' snog?" I assented again.
"Then that be just where the lie comes in. Why, there be
scores of these laybeds that be toom as old Dun's `baccabox
on Friday night."
He nudged one of his companions, and they all laughed.
"And, my gog! How could they be otherwise? Look at that one,
the aftest abaft the bier-bank, read it!"
I went over and read, "Edward Spencelagh, master mariner,
murdered by pirates off the coast of Andres, April, 1854, age 30."
When I came back Mr. Swales went on,
"Who brought him home, I wonder, to hap him here? Murdered off
the coast of Andres! An' you consated his body lay under!
Why, I could name ye a dozen whose bones lie in the Greenland seas above,"
he pointed northwards, "or where the currants may have drifted them.
There be the steans around ye. Ye can, with your young eyes,
read the small print of the lies from here. This Braithwaite Lowery,
I knew his father, lost in the Lively off Greenland in `20, or
Andrew Woodhouse, drowned in the same seas in 1777, or John Paxton,
drowned off Cape Farewell a year later, or old John Rawlings,
whose grandfather sailed with me, drowned in the Gulf of Finland
in `50. Do ye think that all these men will have to make a rush
to Whitby when the trumpet sounds? I have me antherums aboot it!
I tell ye that when they got here they'd be jommlin' and jostlin'
one another that way that it `ud be like a fight up on the ice
in the old days, when we'd be at one another from daylight
to dark, an' tryin' to tie up our cuts by the aurora borealis."
This was evidently local pleasantry, for the old man cackled over it,
and his cronies joined in with gusto.
"But," I said, "surely you are not quite correct, for you start
on the assumption that all the poor people, or their spirits,
will have to take their tombstones with them on the Day of Judgment.
Do you think that will be really necessary?"
"Well, what else be they tombstones for? Answer me that, miss!"
"To please their relatives, I suppose."
"To please their relatives, you suppose!" This he said with intense scorn.
"How will it pleasure their relatives to know that lies is wrote over them,
and that everybody in the place knows that they be lies?"
He pointed to a stone at our feet which had been laid down as a slab,
on which the seat was rested, close to the edge of the cliff.
"Read the lies on that thruff-stone," he said.
The letters were upside down to me from where I sat, but Lucy was more
opposite to them, so she leant over and read, "Sacred to the memory
of George Canon, who died, in the hope of a glorious resurrection,
on July 29,1873, falling from the rocks at Kettleness.
This tomb was erected by his sorrowing mother to her dearly beloved
son.`He was the only son of his mother, and she was a widow.'
Really, Mr. Swales, I don't see anything very funny in that!"
She spoke her comment very gravely and somewhat severely.
"Ye don't see aught funny! Ha-ha! But that's because ye
don't gawm the sorrowin'mother was a hell-cat that hated him
because he was acrewk'd, a regular lamiter he was, an' he hated
her so that he committed suicide in order that she mightn't
get an insurance she put on his life. He blew nigh the top
of his head off with an old musket that they had for scarin'
crows with. `twarn't for crows then, for it brought the clegs
and the dowps to him. That's the way he fell off the rocks.
And, as to hopes of a glorious resurrection, I've often heard
him say masel' that he hoped he'd go to hell, for his mother
was so pious that she'd be sure to go to heaven, an' he didn't
want to addle where she was. Now isn't that stean at any rate,"
he hammered it with his stick as he spoke, "a pack of lies?
And won't it make Gabriel keckle when Geordie comes pantin'
ut the grees with the tompstean balanced on his hump,
and asks to be took as evidence!"
I did not know what to say, but Lucy turned the conversation
as she said, rising up, "Oh, why did you tell us of this?
It is my favorite seat, and I cannot leave it, and now I find
I must go on sitting over the grave of a suicide."
"That won't harm ye, my pretty, an' it may make poor Geordie
gladsome to have so trim a lass sittin' on his lap.
That won't hurt ye. Why, I've sat here off an' on for
nigh twenty years past, an' it hasn't done me no harm.
Don't ye fash about them as lies under ye, or that doesn'
lie there either! It'll be time for ye to be getting scart
when ye see the tombsteans all run away with, and the place
as bare as a stubble-field. There's the clock, and'I must gang.
My service to ye, ladies!" And off he hobbled.
Lucy and I sat awhile, and it was all so beautiful
before us that we took hands as we sat, and she told me
all over again about Arthur and their coming marriage.
That made me just a little heart-sick, for I haven't heard
from Jonathan for a whole month.
The same day. I came up here alone, for I am very sad. There was no
letter for me. I hope there cannot be anything the matter with Jonathan.
The clock has just struck nine. I see the lights scattered all over
the town, sometimes in rows where the streets are, and sometimes singly.
They run right up the Esk and die away in the curve of the valley.
To my left the view is cut off by a black line of roof of the old house
next to the abbey. The sheep and lambs are bleating in the fields away
behind me, and there is a clatter of donkeys' hoofs up the paved road below.
The band on the pier is playing a harsh waltz in good time, and further
along the quay there is a Salvation Army meeting in a back street.
Neither of the bands hears the other, but up here I hear and see
them both. I wonder where Jonathan is and if he is thinking of me!
I wish he were here.
DR. SEWARD'S DIARY
5 June.--The case of Renfield grows more interesting the more
I get to understand the man. He has certain qualities very
largely developed, selfishness, secrecy, and purpose.
I wish I could get at what is the object of the latter. He seems
to have some settled scheme of his own, but what it is I do not know.
His redeeming quality is a love of animals, though, indeed, he has such
curious turns in it that I sometimes imagine he is only abnormally cruel.
His pets are of odd sorts.
Just now his hobby is catching flies. He has at present
such a quantity that I have had myself to expostulate.
To my astonishment, he did not break out into a fury,
as I expected, but took the matter in simple seriousness.
He thought for a moment, and then said, "May I have three days?
I shall clear them away." Of course, I said that would do.
I must watch him.
18 June.--He has turned his mind now to spiders,and has got several
very big fellows in a box. He keeps feeding them his flies,
and the number of the latter is becoming sensibly diminished,
although he has used half his food in attracting more flies
from outside to his room.
1 July.--His spiders are now becoming as great a nuisance as his flies,
and today I told him that he must get rid of them.
He looked very sad at this, so I said that he must some of them,
at all events. He cheerfully acquiesced in this, and I gave him
the same time as before for reduction.
He disgusted me much while with him, for when a horrid blowfly,
bloated with some carrion food, buzzed into the room, he caught it,
held it exultantly for a few moments between his finger and thumb,
and before I knew what he was going to do, put it in his mouth
and ate it.
I scolded him for it, but he argued quietly that it was very good and
very wholesome, that it was life, strong life, and gave life to him.
This gave me an idea, or the rudiment of one. I must watch how he gets
rid of his spiders.
He has evidently some deep problem in his mind, for he keeps
a little notebook in which he is always jotting down something.
whole pages of it are filled with masses of figures,
generally single numbers added up in batches, and then the totals
added in batches again, as though he were focussing some account,
as the auditors put it.
8 July.--There is a method in his madness,and the rudimentary
idea in my mind is growing. It will be a whole idea soon,
and then, oh, unconscious cerebration, you will have to give
the wall to your conscious brother.
I kept away from my friend for a few days, so that I might notice if there
were any change. Things remain as they were except that he has parted
with some of his pets and got a new one.
He has managed to get a sparrow, and has already partially tamed it.
His means of taming is simple, for already the spiders have diminshed.
Those that do remain, however, are well fed, for he still brings
in the flies by tempting them with his food.
19 July--We are progressing. My friend has now a whole colony of sparrows,
and his flies and spiders are almost obliterated. When I came in he ran to me
and said he wanted to ask me a great favour, a very, very great favour.
And as he spoke, he fawned on me like a dog.
I asked him what it was, and he said, with a sort of rapture in his
voice and bearing, "A kitten, a nice, little, sleek playful kitten,
that I can play with, and teach, and feed, and feed, and feed!"
I was not unprepared for this request, for I had noticed
how his pets went on increasing in size and vivacity, but I
did not care that his pretty family of tame sparrows should
be wiped out in the same manner as the flies and spiders.
So I said I would see about it, and asked him if he would
not rather have a cat than a kitten.
His eagerness betrayed him as he answered, "Oh, yes, I would like a cat!
I only asked for a kitten lest you should refuse me a cat.
No one would refuse me a kitten, would they?"
I shook my head, and said that at present I feared it
would not be possible, but that I would see about it.
His face fell, and I could see a warning of danger in it,
for there was a sudden fierce, sidelong look which meant killing.
The man is an undeveloped homicidal maniac. I shall test
him with his present craving and see how it will work out,
then I shall know more.
10 pm.--I have visited him again and found him sitting in a corner brooding.
When I came in he threw himself on his knees before me and implored me to let
him have a cat, that his salvation depended upon it.
I was firm, however, and told him that he could not
have it, whereupon he went without a word, and sat down,
gnawing his fingers, in the corner where I had found him.
I shall see him in the morning early.
20 July.--Visited Renfield very early, before attendant went his rounds.
Found him up and humming a tune. He was spreading out his sugar,
which he had saved, in the window, and was manifestly beginning his fly
catching again, and beginning it cheerfully and with a good grace.
I looked around for his birds,and not seeing them,asked him where they were.
He replied, without turning round, that they had all flown away.
There were a few feathers about the room and on his pillow a drop of blood.
I said nothing, but went and told the keeper to report to me if there
were anything odd about him during the day.
11 am.--The attendant has just been to see me to say that Renfield
has been very sick and has disgorged a whole lot of feathers.
"My belief is, doctor," he said, "that he has eaten his birds,
and that he just took and ate them raw!"
11 pm.--I gave Renfield a strong opiate tonight, enough to make
even him sleep, and took away his pocketbook to look at it.
The thought that has been buzzing about my brain lately is complete,
and the theory proved.
My homicidal maniac is of a peculiar kind. I shall have to invent a new
classification for him, and call him a zoophagous (life-eating) maniac.
What he desires is to absorb as many lives as he can, and he has laid himself
out to achieve it in a cumulative way. He gave many flies to one spider
and many spiders to one bird, and then wanted a cat to eat the many birds.
What would have been his later steps?
It would almost be worth while to complete the experiment.
It might be done if there were only a sufficient cause.
Men sneered at vivisection, and yet look at its results today!
Why not advance science in its most difficult and vital aspect,
the knowledge of the brain?
Had I even the secret of one such mind, did I hold
the key to the fancy of even one lunatic, I might advance
my own branch of science to a pitch compared with which
Burdon-Sanderson's physiology or Ferrier's brain knowledge
would be as nothing. If only there were a sufficient cause!
I must not think too much of this, or I may be tempted.
A good cause might turn the scale with me, for may not I too
be of an exceptional brain, congenitally?
How well the man reasoned. Lunatics always do within their own scope.
I wonder at how many lives he values a man, or if at only one.
He has closed the account most accurately, and today begun a new record.
How many of us begin a new record with each day of our lives?
To me it seems only yesterday that my whole life ended
with my new hope, and that truly I began a new record.
So it shall be until the Great Recorder sums me up and closes
my ledger account with a balance to profit or loss.
Oh, Lucy, Lucy, I cannot be angry with you, nor can I be angry
with my friend whose happiness is yours, but I must only wait
on hopeless and work. Work! Work!
If I could have as strong a cause as my poor mad friend there, a good,
unselfish cause to make me work, that would be indeed happiness.
MINA MURRAY'S JOURNAL
26 July.--I am anxious,and it soothes me to express myself here.
It is like whispering to one's self and listening at the same time.
And there is also something about the shorthand symbols that makes it
different from writing. I am unhappy about Lucy and about Jonathan.
I had not heard from Jonathan for some time, and was very concerned,
but yesterday dear Mr. Hawkins, who is always so kind, sent me a letter
from him. I had written asking him if he had heard, and he said the enclosed
had just been received. It is only a line dated from Castle Dracula,
and says that he is just starting for home. That is not like Jonathan.
I do not understand it, and it makes me uneasy.
Then, too, Lucy , although she is so well, has lately taken to her old
habit of walking in her sleep. Her mother has spoken to me about it,
and we have decided that I am to lock the door of our room every night.
Mrs. Westenra has got an idea that sleep-walkers always go out on roofs
of houses and along the edges of cliffs and then get suddenly wakened
and fall over with a despairing cry that echoes all over the place.
Poor dear, she is naturally anxious about Lucy, and she tells
me that her husband, Lucy's father, had the same habit,
that he would get up in the night and dress himself and go out,
if he were not stopped.
Lucy is to be married in the autumn, and she is already
planning out her dresses and how her house is to be arranged.
I sympathise with her, for I do the same, only Jonathan and I
will start in life in a very simple way, and shall have to try
to make both ends meet.
Mr. Holmwood, he is the Hon. Arthur Holmwood, only son of Lord Godalming,
is coming up here very shortly, as soon as he can leave town, for his father
is not very well, and I think dear Lucy is counting the moments till he comes.
She wants to take him up in the seat on the churchyard cliff and show him
the beauty of Whitby. I daresay it is the waiting which disturbs her.
She will be all right when he arrives.
27 July.--No news from Jonathan. I am getting quite uneasy about him,
though why I should I do not know, but I do wish that he would write,
if it were only a single line.
Lucy walks more than ever, and each night I am awakened by her moving about
the room. Fortunately, the weather is so hot that she cannot get cold.
But still, the anxiety and the perpetually being awakened is beginning
to tell on me, and I am getting nervous and wakeful myself.
Thank God, Lucy's health keeps up. Mr. Holmwood has been suddenly
called to Ring to see his father, who has been taken seriously ill.
Lucy frets at the postponement of seeing him, but it does not
touch her looks. She is a trifle stouter, and her cheeks are
a lovely rose-pink. She has lost the anemic look which she had.
I pray it will all last.
3 August.--Another week gone by, and no news from Jonathan,
not even to Mr. Hawkins, from whom I have heard. Oh, I do
hope he is not ill. He surely would have written. I look at
that last letter of his, but somehow it does not satisfy me.
It does not read like him, and yet it is his writing.
There is no mistake of that.
Lucy has not walked much in her sleep the last week,
but there is an odd concentration about her which I do
not understand, even in her sleep she seems to be watching me.
She tries the door, and finding it locked, goes about the room
searching for the key.
6 August.--Another three days, and no news.
This suspense is getting dreadful. If I only knew where
to write to or where to go to, I should feel easier.
But no one has heard a word of Jonathan since that last letter.
I must only pray to God for patience.
Lucy is more excitable than ever, but is otherwise well. Last night
was very threatening, and the fishermen say that we are in for a storm.
I must try to watch it and learn the weather signs.
Today is a gray day,and the sun as I write is hidden in thick clouds,
high over Kettleness. Everything is gray except the green grass,
which seems like emerald amongst it, gray earthy rock, gray clouds,
tinged with the sunburst at the far edge, hang over the gray sea,
into which the sandpoints stretch like gray figures. The sea is tumbling
in over the shallows and the sandy flats with a roar, muffled in
the sea-mists drifting inland. The horizon is lost in a gray mist.
All vastness, the clouds are piled up like giant rocks, and there
is a `brool' over the sea that sounds like some passage of doom.
Dark figures are on the beach here and there, sometimes half shrouded
in the mist, and seem `men like trees walking'. The fishing boats are
racing for home, and rise and dip in the ground swell as they sweep
into the harbour, bending to the scuppers. Here comes old Mr. Swales.
He is making straight for me, and I can see, by the way he lifts his hat,
that he wants to talk.
I have been quite touched by the change in the poor old man.
When he sat down beside me, he said in a very gentle way,
"I want to say something to you, miss."
I could see he was not at ease, so I took his poor old wrinkled hand in mine
and asked him to speak fully.
So he said, leaving his hand in mine, "I'm afraid, my deary,
that I must have shocked you by all the wicked things I've been sayin'
about the dead, and such like, for weeks past, but I didn't mean them,
and I want ye to remember that when I'm gone. We aud folks that be daffled,
and with one foot abaft the krok-hooal, don't altogether like to think
of it, and we don't want to feel scart of it, and that's why I've
took to makin' light of it, so that I'd cheer up my own heart a bit.
But, Lord love ye, miss, I ain't afraid of dyin', not a bit, only I
don't want to die if I can help it. My time must be nigh at hand now,
for I be aud, and a hundred years is too much for any man to expect.
And I'm so nigh it that the Aud Man is already whettin' his scythe.
Ye see, I can't get out o' the habit of caffin' about it all at once.
The chafts will wag as they be used to. Some day soon the Angel of Death
will sound his trumpet for me. But don't ye dooal an' greet, my deary!"--
for he saw that I was crying--"if he should come this very night I'd
not refuse to answer his call. For life be, after all, only a waitin'
for somethin' else than what we're doin', and death be all that we can
rightly depend on. But I'm content, for it's comin' to me, my deary,
and comin' quick. It may be comin' while we be lookin' and wonderin'. Maybe
it's in that wind out over the sea that's bringin' with it loss and wreck,
and sore distress, and sad hearts. Look! Look!" he cried suddenly.
"There's something in that wind and in the hoast beyont that sounds,
and looks, and tastes, and smells like death. It's in the air.
I feel it comin'. Lord, make me answer cheerful, when my call comes!"
He held up his arms devoutly, and raised his hat. His mouth moved
as though he were praying. After a few minutes' silence, he got up,
shook hands with me, and blessed me, and said goodbye, and hobbled off.
It all touched me, and upset me very much.
I was glad when the coastguard came along, with his spyglass under his arm.
He stopped to talk with me, as he always does, but all the time kept looking
at a strange ship.
"I can't make her out," he said. "She's a Russian, by the look of her.
But she's knocking about in the queerest way. She doesn't know
her mind a bit. She seems to see the storm coming, but can't
decide whether to run up north in the open, or to put in here.
Look there again! She is steered mighty strangely, for she doesn't
mind the hand on the wheel, changes about with every puff of wind.
We'll hear more of her before this time tomorrow."